In a Down Spell

Howdy there and Happy Monday!ย Luke and I went to the ranch, and I’d love to say that we had a blast, but that was not the case. Y’all – I was SUPER depressed the entire time, no rhyme or reason at all. I had one good evening, but then I basically laid on the couch covered in a blanket and in bed crying the entire time. Luke had a good time though – he got to shoot some prairie dogs and sight in his guns, so all was not lost due to my depression.

Here are some pics from the ranch – I didn’t feel like taking too many pictures due to my depression, but I did snap a few good ones.

We ate burgers and fresh french fries (my Dad keeps a deep fryer out there, so it’s always a treat) at the ranch, and it was mighty tasty! I allowed myself a “cheat day” because, hey, I was on vacation. I also grilled some veggies for lunch the next day, and man oh man, they were GOOD. I wish we could keep a grill in the apartment, but we have no outdoor space, boo!

This morning I woke up and simply wasn’t hungry. I had a cup of coffee and decided to hit the gym!

I did the elliptical for 45 minutes despite my phone suddenly having a low battery and my headphones only wanting to play in one ear – time for a new set! I have a plan to start doing some cardio each day, even if it’s just 30 minutes. I need to keep my mood as stable as possible, so I’m changing my point of view on exercise and want to do it as often as I can for the mood benefits – I’m thinking of it as part of my therapy, and I need to not skimp on it.

I had breakfast for lunch today as we need to hit the store later – I scrambled two farm fresh eggs that my Dad gave us with S+P, cooked up a slice of bacon, and added a baby avocado on the side. I added a dash of salsa after I took the picture. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Luke and Iย went back to the gym in the afternoon and lifted weights. I lifted heavier than usual and really got a buzz!

My shirt today signifies my attitude – NOPE towards negativity, eating disordered behaviors, and NOPE to not going to the gym.

My snack today was broccoli, cauliflower, red bell pepper, and carrots with salsa and fat-free ranch.

Unfortunately around 5:30, my mood took a turn for the worse – I was a sobbing, sniffling mess. I had a cup of coffee and tried to calm down, but my mood was shot for the rest of the day.

Dinner was the breast of a rotisserie chicken on top of mixed greens with fat-free ranch and Stubb’s Original BBQ sauce.

That’s my spiel for today – I’m off to be depressed, take a bath, and drink hot tea. Here’s hoping for a better tomorrow, my friends!

~ Mandy


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