Anxiety and Depression

Howdy, howdy! How are you doing today?

Shhh! Don’t disturb a sleeping man and his cat! Luke sleeps in much later than me due to his job keeping him up until midnight (and then he stays up even after that). I’m always up between 7:30 – 8:00 a.m. and he’s up around 12:30 p.m. or 1 … it’s a weird schedule for us, but it’ll be changing now that my man is planning on heading back to school next semester to become a Physician’s Assistant.

Breakfast – 9:40 a.m.

While Luke slept, I made my usual egg white + 1 egg mix with S+P today along with three slices of maple bacon and 1 turkey sauce patty. Coffee to drink. I should really mix up my breakfasts, so I’ll think of something else to do tomorrow.

Lunch – 12:40 p.m.

I roasted some carrots, sweet potatoes, Brussels sprouts, and red bell pepper and drizzled on some Toasted Sesame Ginger Dressing. Boar’s Head turkey with BBQ on the side.

I became VERY anxious around 2:30 … I’m nervous about something that’s having to happen on Thursday, but I can’t go into details. Let’s just say that I’m very thankful for my Klonopin and my Gabapentin at this time. Anxiety is rough af, y’all.

Snack – 4:00 p.m.

My snack today was some raw baby carrots and broccoli sprinkled with seasoning and in hummus.

I also ate a Kaiser roll with jam and butter out of anxiety, a decision which I immediately regretted, but what was done was done. I basically ruined my dinner because I ate it.

Cocktail Hour – 6:00 p.m.

I had a Hibiscus Ginger Kombucha for my mocktail this evening. My anxiety had settled into depression at this point.

Dinner – I skipped it

I was just too full from my Kaiser roll and too depressed to eat anything. I know this isn’t ideal, but hey, it’s the reality of living with depression and anxiety.

Here’s hoping that tomorrow is a bright day.

~ Mandy

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