Well hello there! I do apologize for being MIA for the past few weeks – I haven’t been well mentally from having almost daily anxiety attacks which tend to last from 3 to 5 hours at a time.
In fact, I ruined our 6th anniversary … well, “ruined” isn’t perhaps the proper term, but I saw Dr. Jenkins on Friday the 20th, our anniversary date, and he switched me to Klonopin that very day … by the afternoon, I was high as a kite and slurring on my newfound Klonopin, and Luke quickly vetoed the idea of going out for sushi, as we had originally planned, because I was utterly out of it. Instead, we both thought it best to keep me in the apartment, and Luke ordered us Pizza Hut instead. Yes, we did hit up Fuddruckers the next day for a good bison burger, but I felt I basically ruined our anniversary, so boo. I’m lucky to have a man who loves me despite my struggles!
The switch to Klonopin has wrecked havoc on my sleep schedule to boot, but we’re keeping our fingers crossed that the med change will help my anxiety attacks. I literally have been waking up at 4:30 a.m. for my pill, so I’ve been attempting to make adjustments to the times I take my Klonopin. Right now I take it right when I get up and then around 6 in the evening. Jenkins will hopefully get me on a new sleeping medication tomorrow (he was out today).
Moving on – I’d like to have a “revival” of sorts with this blog since I’ve been away for so long. I’d like to keep moving forward with my health and my fitness as best I can – i.e. taking pictures of my meals and logging my exercise. I’ve gotten lax about my eating (I’m still around 135-137 lbs in spite of myself), and I haven’t felt like hitting the gym much recently either. I’d like to delve back into cutting, y’all, and doing weights often. My success story *definitely* looks like the diagram below, and I’ve been stuck in a loop and am ready to break free:I’d like to accomplish my goals, and I feel like blogging helps me keep my day straight (plus, let’s be honest, it’s a fun activity), so here we go!
This morning I made my version of steak and eggs – I baked some marinated deer tenderloin with a bit of BBQ sauce and topped it with two fried eggs. Mixed fruit on the side, coffee to drink. This breakfast was VERY filling, probably due to all of the protein. 🙂
I kinda slunk around after that, trying to get rid of my headache. I rested my eyes and eventually took a shower (no makeup today or hair curling today, I just did a braid/bun).
I wanted a salad for lunch, so I roasted some broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots and placed them on a bed of spinach. I added some Boar’s Head ham and mozzarella cheese with jalapeno ranch. Easy peasy lunch.
Around 2, I had a small honeycrisp apple with Tajin …
Today was leg day, and man oh man, my quads were on FIRE! I left the gym winded and wobbly. 😉 (Please forgive my no make up and crappy hair look, I just wasn’t feeling makeup today after my horrid sleep.) I lifted 260 lbs on the quad press, so I was pretty impressed with myself (usually I’m at 240).
Let me tell y’all, I felt AMAZING after working out, despite being wobbly and tired. It was wonderful getting a workout in. 🙂 I’ve missed it for the past week or so of not feeling well mentally, and I plan to really get back into it!
After our workout, I picked my car up from getting an oil change and inspection, and I CLEANED THAT SUCKER OUT and took it through a car wash. It was filthy!
Around 5, I needed a little something-something in my tummy, so I had some cucumber, cauliflower, and tomatoes with hummus and a bit of jalapeno ranch.
I made stuffed bell peppers earlier this week, so I had one for dinner tonight with extra salsa. Very tasty! I impressed myself. 😉
Alrighty, that’s what I got for tonight! Hope to see you soon!
~ Mandy 🙂