Howdy, howdy! How are y’all doing today? I’m feeling tired yet accomplished as I went to the gym again with Luke!
It’s HARD starting over at the gym after about 3-4 months of not going. I can’t do my usual weight on the machines, but that’s A-OKAY. I’m just getting started again, and I don’t need to tax myself too much. I was proud that I did 180 on the quad press (I used to do 230), and then Luke and I worked our calves and did a few other leg machines to boot. 🙂 On a positive note, Luke said that my quads are still showing muscle, which was AMAZING to hear from him; I’m more than ready to get my muscular physique back!
My belly and lower tummy are my main “problem areas” – when one has an eating disorder and starts feeding her body properly, the bulk of the food goes to the core to protect internal organs, and thus my core is flabby and has a newfound fat roll … therefore, I’ll be needing to do sit-ups again and eat less carbs and more protein to smooth things out.
This is what I look like currently, at about 140-145-ish lbs (I tossed our scale before I went to residential, and I’m so glad that I did!).
Now this was me a few months ago when I was more muscular at about 137 lbs:
And this is a before and after of me at my most muscular (but yes, I was still engaging in eating disordered behaviors at this point, so it’s nothing to laud me about … I just miss dem abs though).
Am I glad I chose recovery despite losing my muscular physique? THAT’S A RESOUNDING YES! My boobs grew from a 32A to a 32D (YAAAASS), and I’m not binging, purging, or restricting. I learned how to nourish my body properly, and that’s something I truly needed help with! Plus, my hair and nails look SO MUCH HEALTHIER NOW, and I’m hoping they continue to keep growing.
So here’s to a more muscular and healthier Mandy in the future!