Hello, hello! How are you today?
I’ve been exercising almost daily, and I’m *not* doing it to cancel calories, to punish myself, or to fall back into an ED behavior … I’m doing it JOYFULLY! So today’s post touches on joyful exercise.
Joyful exercise is remembering to be GENTLE with yourself, give yourself GRACE when you move your body. If you don’t feel up to exercising, it’s perfectly fine to take a rest day (or more). To me, joyful exercise is not a “have to do it” but rather a “fun thing to do,” a celebration of my body’s capabilities.
Joyful exercise also helps with my anxiety and mood disorders, y’all. It gets all those positive juices like serotonin and dopamine flowing nicely and helps keep my mood STABLE … well, as stable as it can be for a girl living with Bipolar I Disorder.
Remember to always strive for excellence/progress, NOT PERFECTION. I’ll do a blog post on this later on, but remember that perfection is unattainable, and seeking it makes one miserable.
Here’s a VERY GOOD article about joyful exercising that I found helpful: How to Find Balance with Exercise in Eating Disorder Recovery by Robyn Cruze
Onto the Daily Food Log!
I cooked 3 eggs over medium and added some leftover rib-eye with salsa. Holy YUM, you guys … this meal held me over for HOURS.
Today I did 45 minutes while zoning out to some awesome German musicals! As a side note, I look like a nasty she-beast-thing when I do cardio – I just crawl outta bed, put on deodorant, pull my hair up in a messy knot, and I just GO because I have to work out my morning jitters …. does anyone else get morning jitters? I have them, so I try to do cardio pretty quickly after I wake up and have breakfast and coffee.
My lunch was right after counseling – at 3:00 p.m. – so I’m not sure whether to call it lunch or a snack. I think I’m going to consider it lunch today. Those eggs and steak kept me VERY FULL until I started thinking about food around 3:00. I had 1/2 C of plain Greek yogurt, a somewhat unripe peach (I bought two, and I’ll wait to eat the other one in a few more days), and a drizzle of honey.
I *surprised* myself by actually LIKING what I saw in the above picture – I look HEALTHY and am well on my way to getting FITTER and more MUSCULAR. I wasn’t judging my waist, my looks, my body … I’m JUST ME!
I love this quote – for YEARS and YEARS, I hadn’t been taking care of my body. Now it’s time to FLOURISH, not simply survive. 😉
Here’s a comparison pic: On the right is me while engaging in ED behaviors. I weighed about 130 lbs in that pic, but I don’t look happy or particularly healthy … I look more muscular, but that’s because I’d been doing weights for about 6 months, but on the left is the “new, non-ED edition, happy Mandy” who’s on the path to getting muscular again.
I adore the girl on the left and feel so sorry for the girl on the right … but moving on … after weightlifting, I tried on my new Free People French Courtship Corset that I had received in the mail today. (Forgive the tag showing, I need to snip it …. I have this slip in different colors, both a size small and a size x-small … I don’t notice a difference in them!)
I made a little veggie plate with half a cucumber, a carrot, 2 tbsp of hummus, and 1 tbsp of light ranch dressing. S+P finished it off!
I butterflied a beer-marinaded chicken breast from United and cooked it in a little bit of butter, and then I placed it on a bed of spinach with some sauteed Brussels sprouts, chickpeas, and about 2 tbsp of light ranch dressing. Three little pickles rounded things out. 😉
Alrighty, that’s all I have for today! I hope this helps someone out there who’s struggling! 🙂