Pancakes + Piercings

Hey there! How are you doing today? I’ve been a little scattered today in the brain, but that’s okay – I’m dealing with it as it comes.

The kitt lits were busy stacking themselves on our TV stand today …

… and Drogo, satisfied from his small rat, was peeking out from underneath his water dish (he can barely squeeze himself under there now, he’s getting so fat).


This is obviously a reenactment of my breakfast – I ate before I remembered to snap a pic, but here ya go! I had a Maple Hill yogurt with strawberries and honey. Coffee with stevia and cashew milk to drink.


Today I branched out for lunch and helped my husband make his mother’s lovely whole wheat banana pancakes. I had three pancakes with a bit of butter and pure maple syrup.

Here’s the recipe:

Katie’s Pancakes

Put into blender:

  • 1 C grain (we used whole wheat)
  • 1 1/3 C orange juice or water (we used OJ)

Blend until thoroughly ground.

While blender is still mixing, add:

  • 1 egg
  • Pinch of salt
  • Some honey or sweetener (we used honey)
  • 1 or 2 tablespoons of oil
  • 1 banana

After it is blended, while the blender is still mixing, add 1 heaping tbsp of baking powder. Turn the blender off immediately after baking powder gets sucked in and twirled. Wait and watch the batter rise to the top of the blender.

Pour into greased pan or griddle – flip when there are bubbles on top (we sprayed Pam on the cast iron skillet each time we added a new pancake, FYI). Enjoy!

I also had a small amount of roasted carrots and broccoli and a taste of celery with hummus and Fiesta ranch dressing to add some veg to my diet. Carb-y things like pancakes don’t keep me full but veg does.

After lunch and after running an errand with Luke, I decided to do something special – I went and got my naval pierced at our awesome local American Vengeance Tattoo! I also added on a nose piercing to boot! I wanted a nice change for myself, and while I’ve had my nose pierced before, I plan on keeping this hole from closing. 🙂 I’m in a chapter of my life, and this new year seemed like a great time to do a little something-something for myself since I don’t want another tattoo right now. Tonight my belly button is tender, but my nose is fine. It’s funny – the nose piercing hurt much more than the belly button, which I wasn’t expecting at all.


I had a ‘bucha …

… and a medium Ambrosia apple with Tajin Seasoning.


I enjoyed a simple mixed super green salad with cucumbers, tomatoes, S+P,  Sesame Ginger Dressing, and some hot rotisserie chicken breast and a scoop of leftover liver, onions, bacon, and mushrooms for din-din. Easy peasy and so tasty! I added a bit of BBQ to the chicken after taking this pic, but no biggie.

Mental Health

I had a mini-anxiety attack this morning – my eyes crossed, but I was able to keep it together … I’m glad I’m back on Xanax because I think it truly does help me.

I called my nurse and requested that I take 1 mg extended release pill 4 times a day instead of 2 mg twice a day, and she okayed this request after talking to the nurse practitioner. My pharmacy prescribed it to me a little differently this go-around because I needed extra for my trip to Seattle, and I needed it immediately, and that’s the dosage they had available. I like this dosage better than 2 mg twice a day as I think it keeps me more stable.

I also called my dear mom and chatted with her for a bit; she helps keep my mind together when I talk to her – I don’t want to wake my sleeping husband when I have these attacks, and my mom and my sister are both very available to me, which is amazing. I’m so grateful for them.

Other than that, I was pretty stable today, so I count that as a win. 😉

Hope you’ve had a fabulous day – and please remember that ED recovery and mental stability *is* possible, but it takes time and experimentation to tailor a system which is right for you and no one else!

~ Mandy


Anxiety and Depression

Howdy, howdy! How are you doing today?

Shhh! Don’t disturb a sleeping man and his cat! Luke sleeps in much later than me due to his job keeping him up until midnight (and then he stays up even after that). I’m always up between 7:30 – 8:00 a.m. and he’s up around 12:30 p.m. or 1 … it’s a weird schedule for us, but it’ll be changing now that my man is planning on heading back to school next semester to become a Physician’s Assistant.

Breakfast – 9:40 a.m.

While Luke slept, I made my usual egg white + 1 egg mix with S+P today along with three slices of maple bacon and 1 turkey sauce patty. Coffee to drink. I should really mix up my breakfasts, so I’ll think of something else to do tomorrow.

Lunch – 12:40 p.m.

I roasted some carrots, sweet potatoes, Brussels sprouts, and red bell pepper and drizzled on some Toasted Sesame Ginger Dressing. Boar’s Head turkey with BBQ on the side.

I became VERY anxious around 2:30 … I’m nervous about something that’s having to happen on Thursday, but I can’t go into details. Let’s just say that I’m very thankful for my Klonopin and my Gabapentin at this time. Anxiety is rough af, y’all.

Snack – 4:00 p.m.

My snack today was some raw baby carrots and broccoli sprinkled with seasoning and in hummus.

I also ate a Kaiser roll with jam and butter out of anxiety, a decision which I immediately regretted, but what was done was done. I basically ruined my dinner because I ate it.

Cocktail Hour – 6:00 p.m.

I had a Hibiscus Ginger Kombucha for my mocktail this evening. My anxiety had settled into depression at this point.

Dinner – I skipped it

I was just too full from my Kaiser roll and too depressed to eat anything. I know this isn’t ideal, but hey, it’s the reality of living with depression and anxiety.

Here’s hoping that tomorrow is a bright day.

~ Mandy