FriYay Leg Day

Howdy there and Happy Friday to you! How are you doing today?

I’m doing well today. 🙂 My bipolar and my panic attacks seem to be well-managed, and I have ENERGY again after my med switch.


This morning I scrambled three eggs with S+P and topped them with three slices of bacon and salsa. I also had a piece of honey whole wheat toast with butter and raspberry jam. Coffee to drink.


I needed a small snack this morning, so I had some baby carrots with Sriracha ranch.

After my snack, I went to Target for a few items and nabbed a simple gray $5 clearance dress that I just adore! SCORE! It’s long enough to cover my bum and my upper legs, which always makes me happy.


I love the recipe for Honey Soy Chicken, so I marinated some this morning to have for lunch. I baked it and steamed some yellow squash, carrots, and some giant Brussels sprouts. I topped my mashup with some honey mustard dressing and utterly enjoyed my lunch. 😉


Today we did legs! Man oh man, my butt and upper legs were like jello after our workout …. so happy to have gone! 🙂 Lifting weights truly makes me feel better about myself, so damn empowering.


After our workout, I had an Envy apple with cinnamon. Oh my, it tasted so yummy and refreshing!

I also had some balsamic roasted cauliflower with honey mustard dressing – just a little snick snack. What can I say except I love me some veggies.


I became quite depressed around dinnertime, so I heated up some butternut squash and drizzled it with S+P and ketchup, and I made half of a ham sandwich (cheddar cheese, Boar’s Head ham, arugula and spinach, and some honey mustard on whole wheat toast).

Alrighty, that’s my spiel for today – here’s to a happy tomorrow!

~ Mandy


Eating Like a Wonder Woman

Hello, hello! How are you doing today? My kitt lits were being sleepy little buggers this morning, except for Persephone, who is always awake and meowing for pets when I make coffee.

I’m especially thankful for my kitties – my poor sister had her beloved chinchilla Chico put to sleep today, and it reminds me that our furry friends may not be with us as long as we’d like, but they’ll always remain in our hearts. The kitt lits will be receiving extra pets tonight.

I’m happy to report that I’m *finally* adjusted to my Xanax dosage, and I’m feeling a shit-ton better. Med changes suck, but they’re necessary sometimes, especially in my case with the panic disorder diagnosis. Yes, I still have panic attacks about once a week, but they last only an hour or so, not 6-7 hours, so I count that as major improvement.

As for my eating, I’ve made major improvements there too. I’m trying to eat high fiber and high protein for the most part – my goal is to eat three times a day, little to no snacking. My pictures are sometimes broken into several parts because I eat a bite of this and that for my meals. My weight is steadily around 120 – 122 lbs at this point (I’m 5’10”), and I’m chasing muscle mass at this point despite two weeks without going to the gym because of the med switch.


I woke up craving something very savory and sweet, so I made oatmeal! My mix was 1/3 C of Quaker Oats, cashew milk, a banana, 1 tbsp of chia seeds, 1 tbsp of hemp seeds, salt, vanilla, nutmeg, and cinnamon. Pumpkin stirred in at the end with a spoonful of crunchy PB! I had an empty PB jar, which is rare because I eat it so sparingly, so I put my oat mix into that (bonus: no dish is dirtied!). Coffee to drink.


Today I had three hard boiled eggs, a piece of whole wheat toast with cream cheese and raspberry jam, and steamed broccoli and carrots with some Sriracha ranch.

I also had an Envy apple with cinnamon.


I had an appointment to take care of this afternoon, so Luke went to the gym without me and did arms. Hopefully I’ll go tomorrow. 🙂 I felt pretty today in my Wonder Woman sweater, so I had Luke snap a pic. Wonder Woman is my hero, dontcha know.


I did need a snack today, so I had some steamed carrots and cauliflower with hummus and honey mustard dressing. Ginger root beer Zevia to drink. I just love Zevia, it’s a great alternative to soda.


I had half of a tasty ham sandwich (honey wheat whole grain bread, Boar’s Head ham and cheddar, and baby arugula with honey mustard) and two pickles …

… and a Siggi’s vanilla yogurt with raspberries and honey.

Alrighty, those are my eats for the day! May tomorrow be filled with workouts and joy!

~ Mandy

Faint on a Friday

Howdy, howdy, howdy, and Happy Friday! How are you doing today? I apologize for being MIA for two days, but I’m happy to report that my anxiety is down, and I’m doing much better in the mood department.

Breakfast – 10:15 a.m.

I wasn’t too hungry for breakfast, so I had a banana with PB, hemp seeds, and chia seeds. This morning I was in a bit of gastrointestinal distress, so I tried to keep things simple, hoping my system would clear up a bit.

Lunch – 12:30 p.m.

I roasted some BBQ chicken, green beans, Brussels sprouts, poblano pepper, carrots, and cauliflower in the oven for 30 minutes. I drizzled some bleu cheese vinaigrette over the veggies. This was a damn good lunch, and I hoped that it would help settle my tummy.

Workout – there wasn’t one due to my gastrointestinal shit (haha) happening today, so that’s that. Oh well. There’s always tomorrow.

Snack – 3:30 p.m.

I was feeling a little peckish, so I cut up a small mango and sprinkled it with Tajin seasoning. Yummy!

Snack – 4:00 p.m.

Still feeling a bit hungry, I had some deer sausage with Gouda cheese and crackers with hot pepper raspberry preserves. I didn’t eat all of the deer sausage, I basically ate the crackers, the cheese, and about 5 bites of deer.

Cocktail Hour – 5:00 p.m.

After my snack, I realized that I wasn’t feeling too well – my head ached and my tummy was unhappy. I decided to try a kombucha to see if it would help settle my stomach.

After drinking my kombucha, I suddenly became very very nauseous and made a beeline for the kitchen sink to vomit … I woke up on the kitchen floor. I fainted, y’all, and I had a bump on my head and was shaking and very cold.

Dinner – 6:30 p.m.

Not feeling great, I wanted something light for dinner, so I opted for some soup and crackers. I tried a Well Yes! soup in Hearty Lentil with Vegetables. It needed a bit of salt, but overall, it was tasty. Several saltines were consumed as well but weren’t pic-worthy.

I took a hot bath and some ibuprofen after my soup and immediately felt better.

Now I’m sipping on water and watching Expedition Unknown, nursing the bump on my head, and browsing the Internet. 🙂

Hope you had a less-faint-y day that I did!

~ Mandy

Anxiety and Depression

Howdy, howdy! How are you doing today?

Shhh! Don’t disturb a sleeping man and his cat! Luke sleeps in much later than me due to his job keeping him up until midnight (and then he stays up even after that). I’m always up between 7:30 – 8:00 a.m. and he’s up around 12:30 p.m. or 1 … it’s a weird schedule for us, but it’ll be changing now that my man is planning on heading back to school next semester to become a Physician’s Assistant.

Breakfast – 9:40 a.m.

While Luke slept, I made my usual egg white + 1 egg mix with S+P today along with three slices of maple bacon and 1 turkey sauce patty. Coffee to drink. I should really mix up my breakfasts, so I’ll think of something else to do tomorrow.

Lunch – 12:40 p.m.

I roasted some carrots, sweet potatoes, Brussels sprouts, and red bell pepper and drizzled on some Toasted Sesame Ginger Dressing. Boar’s Head turkey with BBQ on the side.

I became VERY anxious around 2:30 … I’m nervous about something that’s having to happen on Thursday, but I can’t go into details. Let’s just say that I’m very thankful for my Klonopin and my Gabapentin at this time. Anxiety is rough af, y’all.

Snack – 4:00 p.m.

My snack today was some raw baby carrots and broccoli sprinkled with seasoning and in hummus.

I also ate a Kaiser roll with jam and butter out of anxiety, a decision which I immediately regretted, but what was done was done. I basically ruined my dinner because I ate it.

Cocktail Hour – 6:00 p.m.

I had a Hibiscus Ginger Kombucha for my mocktail this evening. My anxiety had settled into depression at this point.

Dinner – I skipped it

I was just too full from my Kaiser roll and too depressed to eat anything. I know this isn’t ideal, but hey, it’s the reality of living with depression and anxiety.

Here’s hoping that tomorrow is a bright day.

~ Mandy

U-Haulin’ on a Cold Day

Howdy there! How are you doing today? We were u-haulin’ today, let me tell you what, and it was FRIGID and WINDY out. We went from being in the 80’s here to a blustery 50 with 35 mph cold-ass wind.

I’m doing better than yesterday, I’m happy to report. Yesterday was pure hell, and I’m glad it’s over – I had an especially rough night last night. All I can say is that I’m very thankful for my husband, my mom, and my sister … they were all trying to help me out, and help they did. They spoke words which really resonated with me, and for that, I’m so very grateful.

We had a cat in a box this morning! Silly Calliope. 😉

Breakfast – 10:30 a.m.

Breakfast was a little later than usual because I had to shower and get ready for my counseling appointment, but I managed to get my shit together and made some egg whites, bacon, and turkey sausage.

Snack – 12:30 p.m.

After bundling up and returning from counseling, I wasn’t quite hungry for lunch but wanted a quick snack, so I had some carrots and hummus (I also had a piece or two of un-pictured broccoli).

Lunch – 1:10 p.m.

I roasted some Brussels sprouts, carrots, and sweet potato and topped them with some Boar’s Head shaved turkey, Boar’s Head Gouda, and some BBQ sauce. YUM!

This afternoon, we did not workout because we *finally* acquired a U-Haul and coordinated times to move some cars around … Luke’s 4-Runner needs a new engine, and we found one, but it’s in an un-drivable car, so we have two haul the two cars to the shop.

Cocktail Hour – 5:00 p.m.

I wanted my kombucha a little early today while Luke and his friend Marc loaded the 4-Runner onto the trailer with the help of another friend and his FJ.After getting Luke’s truck onto the trailer around 5:00, we waited for Marc to do some stuff and then come back to help us. We were finally on our way around 7:30, and we got the truck delivered! Unfortunately we couldn’t deliver the other truck because it’s in half a piece, and we need a tow truck. Boo.

Dinner – 9:00 p.m.

We ate at Raising Canes for dinner …. I don’t remember what Luke ordered for me, but it was a shit ton of food. I felt like I ate a brick afterward. No pic!

Hope you’ve had as productive of a day as we have!

~ Mandy

A Lazy Day

Howdy, howdy! It’s a beautiful day out here in the Texas Panhandle!

Breakfast – I skipped it. Not on purpose, but I was busy this morning and not hungry at all. No, not really a healthy way to start the day, but I had tons of get up and go, and I had a few errands to run. Much coffee was consumed, however. To be honest, I think I was a wee bit manic. Just something that happens when you’re bipolar, y’all. I managed to settle down around 11, which is good.

Lunch – 12:10 p.m.

My guts were *not* having it today, so much Pepto was consumed – I had diarrhea and gut pain. I decided to keep lunch simple by roasting some red bell pepper, broccoli, and carrots (veggies were truly the only thing that sounded reasonably good to me) and topping them with some Toasted Sesame Ginger Sauce. I also had a turkey and provolone cheese roll up.

Snack – 2:00 p.m.

Since I skipped breakfast and had a meager lunch, I wanted a snack by 2, so I had an Envy apple with peanut butter and cinnamon. Moroccan Mint Green Tea to sip.

Today we did not work out, and I’m thankful – I’m afraid I might have had an accident of the gastrointestinal kind!

Cocktail Hour – 4:00 p.m.

I wanted my kombucha a little earlier than usual as I hoped it might settle down my digestive system.

Dinner – 6:00 p.m.

We decided to mix it up and go to Fuddruckers for hamburgers and onion rings. I wasn’t sure how my tummy would handle this, but as I type this, I am okay thus far. We both got buffalo burgers with Swiss cheese, mushrooms, and onions and topped with tomato and lettuce and ketchup. So delicious yet messy!! 🙂 The onion rings were fabulous as usual, and we still can’t decide if we like the jalapeno cheddar or the fry sauce the best for them.

We truly had a lazy day here – we were hoping to pick up a U-Haul trailer or find someone with a trailer so we can haul Luke’s 4-Runner and another car to the shop, but today we had no luck. Oh well, there’s always Monday for us (Luke’s off on Monday) or next Saturday.

Now I’m watching Ghost Adventures (ugh) on Travel Channel – I wish they’d show re-runs of The Dead Files instead!

Hope you had a nice day!

~ Mandy



Howdy, howdy! How are you doing today? It’s rainy and cool out, bleh!

I’m up another pound and am currently at 122.6 lbs. Not to shabby, if I do say so myself. Hopefully it’s muscle or food/water weight and not fat … I still have a hangup about gaining fat and not muscle, but that’s a discussion for another time. But no worries – it’s just my mind battling me, and I’m looking so much healthier than I was at 110 lbs, and I’m proud of the steps I’m taking to get fit again.

The bed this morning was overrun with grooming kitties!
Breakfast – 10:00 a.m.

I had pumpkin oatmeal for breakfast, but I switched my mix up a bit – I added hemp seeds and cottage cheese to it (we’re out of bananas, so I had to get creative). Other than that, this was my usual 1/2 C of Quaker Oats, milk, chia seeds, vanilla, salt, nutmeg, and cinnamon with a stir of pumpkin at the end of cooking. Peanut butter to top, coffee to drink! (I didn’t eat my entire portion, just enough to feel full which was about 3/4.)

Lunch – 12:45 p.m.

Lunch was what I usually have for breakfast except amplified. I wilted a large handful of spinach and then added egg whites + 1 regular egg and S+P to the spinach to cook. Shredded cheddar was added at the end. I had my usual three strips of bacon and 1 turkey sausage patty with my eggs.

Workout – 1:30 p.m. – 2:30 p.m.

We did legs today, nothing too special … it was raining HARD once we were done, so we sprinted to the car!

Snack – 2:45 p.m.

I was craving protein like crazy after the gym, so I nuked some turkey and provolone cheese and scarfed my concoction down with plenty of water.

Persephone was snuggled up next to a pair of Luke’s pants on the couch and looked very pleased with herself.

Snack – 4:00 p.m.

I was feelin’ snacky again around 4, so I had a Siggi’s Mixed Berry Yogurt with raspberries and honey. I kinda snick-snacked my way through the evening instead of having a proper dinner.

Cocktail Hour – 5:00 p.m.

I tried Humm mango passion fruit kombucha this evening, and I really enjoyed the flavor! YUM! 😉

Dinner – 7:00 p.m.

I wasn’t too hungry after my large snacks this afternoon, so I kept dinner simple and just roasted some Brussels sprouts and carrots and tossed them with Toasted Sesame Ginger Sauce. At this point, I was drinking a TON of water in preparation for my midnight to morning fast for my ultrasound, so my stomach was quite full.

Now I’m watching Mysteries at the Museum (yay Halloween edition!) and sipping on water with thoughts of making some green tea. The cats are asleep in a line on the couch, most thrilled with themselves.

Here’s hoping my ultrasound goes well tomorrow! Fingers crossed!

~ Mandy