Getting Warmer Out = A Happy Mandy + Adventures in Cutting 2

Howdy, howdy there! How are you doing today? Mood-wise, I’ve been doing SO WELL, and it’s been AMAZING. πŸ™‚ I don’t want to jinx myself, but I’m thrilled that the weather is getting warmer. Warmer weather always equates to better moods with me. Speaking of moods, tomorrow is World Bipolar Day, and I’m writing a post to commemorate it … stay tuned!

Onto my eats for the day! I’m still in my cutting-phase, so you’ll see lots of protein today. I must say that I’m really enjoying logging my food into my Lose It app. I love seeing the breakdown of what I’m eating daily!

Breakfast

I woke up very groggy – I needed extra coffee to jump-start my day! I had a repeat of yesterday’s breakfast – three eggs and two pieces of turkey sausage with Pace salsa and chilies.

Total Protein: 31 grams

Total Calories: 356

Workout

I headed to the gym as usual and did my 30 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes walking at 4.0 mph. All in all, a good workout! Then I came back and took a much needed shower! Luke and I took a rest day from weights as he was tired from school and had to work a long shift tonight.

I put on some normal clothes today, huzzah! πŸ™‚ My top/dress/Dolman/whatever-you-wanna-call-it is Anthropologie, and it’s PERFECT for 60 degree days like today. I also felt festive and put on some lipstick. πŸ˜‰ I felt very cute!

Lunch

I roasted Brussels sprouts, broccoli, carrots, and red bell pepper with S+P and garlic powder for lunch … I let them roast for a bit before I added 6 oz of chicken to the mix with some BBQ sauce. I topped the veggies with some hummus and salsa!

Total Protein: 63.4 grams

Total Calories: 572

This lunch was incredibly filling and DELISH! πŸ™‚

Snacks

I had 10 pretzel pieces as a snack today along with a diet Coke. This wasn’t really a cutting-friendly snack, but hey, I wanted something crunchy and salty, and this fit the bill.

Protein: 2 grams

Calories: 110

I also had a 7 oz. opal apple with Tajin, yummy! Again, not exactly cutting-friendly because of the sugar, but it’s a healthy snack, and I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Protein: 0.5 grams

Calories: 103

The kitt lits were sound asleep after Luke headed to work … Calliope was asleep on the TV while Persephone and Caprica made themselves comfy on the bed.

Dinner

Dinner tonight was a reprise of lunch – we’re low on proteins, so BBQ chicken it was again! I baked 6 oz of chicken breast with BBQ sauce as well as some Brussels sprouts, broccoli, and carrots. Then I placed a small amount of herb-y lettuce salad on the bottom of my bowl (it was the last little bit I had in my container) and added my chicken and veg. I topped them with some salsa and a teeny, tiny squirt of honey mustard sauce, just to feel a little naughty. Sometimes one just has to be a little naughty. πŸ˜‰ No worries, I logged it in my Lose It app.

Total Protein: 61.3 grams

Total Calories: 486

Total Protein for the Day: 158.1 grams

Total Calories for the Day (not taking into account those lost via exercise): 1,627

I think I’m doing well! I’ve really upped my protein game … I should count my other macros, but I think sticking to protein is good for now. πŸ™‚

Hope you had a lovely day! I sure did!

~ Mandy

Adventures in Dietary Cutting

Hello, hello! How are you doing today?

I’m starting my cutting diet today – that means tons of protein (about 150+ grams a day), no sugar, few carbs and fats. This will only last about a week or two, so no worries as I’m only looking to get down about 5 lbs of fat. I’m using the Lose It! App to track my protein intake, not really calories so much, but it’s fun to see, and it’s SO cool to see what I’m eating broken down into parts! Let’s see how I did today, shall we? πŸ˜‰

Breakfast

I had three eggs with S+P, enchilada sauce, and chilies along with two turkey sausage patties … here’s the breakdown (I’m not counting the enchilada sauce or the chilies … there’s no need to be obsessive, and they’re not too many calories anyway):

– 3 eggs: 216 calories, 18 g protein

– 2 turkey sausage patties: 130 calories, 13 g protein

Total Protein: 31 grams, Total Calories: 346

Coffee with stevia and cashew milk to drink here, nothing new. I actually bought a new type of salted caramel creamer and tried it yesterday, but it was waaaay too sweet for me, so I’ll just give it to Luke. I’m set in my ways when it comes to cashew milk and stevia in my coffee, I suppose.

Workout #1

After breakfast, I headed to the gym and did the elliptical for 30 minutes and walked briskly for 15 minutes. I had a great little workout! πŸ™‚ I’m so happy that I’ve decided to incorporate cardio into my daily routine as I think it truly does help with my bipolar disorder. Starting my day off with exercise does wonders for me, and my mood was very stable today.

Lunch

I *really* upped my protein game for lunch and baked some venison with veggies … I was HANGRY for lunch around noon, so I ate a lot more protein than usual, but hey, it was delicious.

– 10 oz. venison: 85.6 grams protein, 448 calories

– Honey Pecan BBQ Sauce: 40 calories

– 5 Brussels sprouts: 43 calories

– Broccoli, 1 C: 31 calories, 2.5 grams protein

– Carrots, 1 C: 52 calories

Total Protein: 88.1 grams, Total Calories: 614

While I was eating lunch, Caprica was playing with a catnip mouse that we bought the kitties at Walmart … they’re a HIT with the kitt lits … one was even in the bed with us this morning, ha!Around 1, my Abs2BFitness pants and Free People top (and new headband) came! Huzzah! I snapped a few silly pictures of my ass in the new gray shorts, so here ya go:

And here’s a slightly blurry pic of the army green capris …

They’re really quite cute and comfy pants … you can see why I’d like to lose some fat around my belly as it’s sticking out between my pants and my crop top (it’s not terrible at all and really not noticeable except to me, so don’t think I’m being overly dramatic here, but it’s just something that I’m working on). I’m going to be a repeat Abs2BFitness customer FOR SURE … I’m already plotting my next order, but until then, I’m going to enjoy these beauties to the FULLEST! πŸ™‚

Snack

Around 3, I had my kombucha for the day – it’s my guilty pleasure, after all, and I just love it! I drank it in Luke’s Glenmorangie glass, just to be festive since I no longer drink alcohol, ha! Total calories: 50.

I also had half of a cucumber with a packet of sweet & spicy tuna fish …

Total Calories: 111, Total Protein: 16 grams.

Workout #2

Luke and I did arms today for about 40 minutes. I did 55 lbs on Preacher Curls, so I was pleased with myself. Luke said today that I’m looking better than I ever have, so that’s highly encouraging. πŸ™‚ And I just LOVE my new little headband, it made me feel like Wonder Woman!

Dinner

Around 6, I decided it was time for dinner, so I roasted about 6 oz. of chicken breast with some BBQ sauce along with some red bell pepper. I made a nice herb-y salad with Honey Mustard Sauce and added my chicken and bell pepper on top.

– Chicken Breast, 6 oz: 280 calories, 52.8 grams protein

– BBQ Sauce in Honey Pecan: 40 calories

– Fresh herb salad:Β  35 calories, 3 grams protein

– Red Bell Peppers, 1 C: 46 calories, 1.5 grams protein

– Honey Mustard Sauce: 130 calories, 1 gram protein

Total Calories: 531, Total Protein: 57.3 g

This dinner was surely delicious! YUMMY! That Honey Mustard Sauce *really* made it and was totally worth the calories.

Total Calories for the Day: 1,652 (not taking into account my workouts)

Total Protein for the Day: 198.9 grams – HUZZAH!

Now I’m watching Expedition Unknown and am thinking about cleaning the apartment up a bit … a hot bath is also on my mind! Hope you had a FABULOUS day! πŸ™‚

~ Mandy

 

 

Cardio Goals

Howdy there! How are you today?

We went to the ranch this weekend, and man oh man, we had a BLAST! Here are a few pics …

The Ranch

We ate lunch at the Cattle Exchange, and Luke and I were STUFFED from the Rib Eye Rellenos! Holy YUM!

Now back to our regularly scheduled programming! I was in a good mood this morning because my Abs2BFitness pants and Free People top shipped!

Workout #1

I got up and decided to do some CARDIO this morning despite the drizzle of rain (FINALLY!) and the chill in the air – I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes on the treadmill. Talk about a MOOD BOOST, y’all. This absolutely set me up to have a positive day. πŸ™‚ My plan is to do at least 30 minutes of cardio on most days. I think it’ll do wonders for my mood and body image.

Brunch

Confession: I simply wasn’t hungry for breakfast – coffee held me over through my workout – so I had brunch at 11 instead! (This picture is so crappy, but I was hungry and ate before checking my camera!) I had a piece of toast with butter and jam, blackberries, two eggs, bacon, and some turkey sausage.

Lunch

After my brunch, I was still hungry, so I roasted some carrots and ate them with hummus and jalapeno ranch dressing. YUM!

Luke and Caprica chilled out on the couch …

… and soon all three cats migrated to the nice comfy bed!

While Luke took a nap (he had to be up early for school), I braved the cold and rain and hit up Walmart and United for this week’s eats and necessities.

Snack

I wanted a snack after I hit up the stores, so I had some cucumber, Boar’s Head ham and American cheese, and some pretzel crisps with honey mustard.

I also had an opal apple with Tajin around 3:15 …

Workout #2

Luke and I went back to Verdure at 3:30 and did leg day … we haven’t done leg day in a while, so we were both very wobbly afterwards!

Here’s a pic of what I wore to workout today – nothing fancy, and I’m afraid that my middle looks FAT AF in this getup, but I still wore it and tried to ignore my lying mind. I’m currently at about 133.8 lbs (I weighed today after lunch, so I had food and liquid in my stomach), and I’m trying to push past thoughts that I need to be skinnier, which I *DO* have … le sigh.

My stomach has filled out for sure – I can barely see my ribs now, and I can see my upper abs … it’s a hard adjustment to see, as I only see myself getting fatter, not fitter or healthier. It’s just part of the struggle, I suppose.

Around 5:15, I had a kombucha …

Dinner

I had a lovely roast chicken salad for dinner – I baked some Brussels sprouts, broccoli, and red bell pepper in the oven and then topped some herb-y greens with hot chicken breast and drizzled it all with jalapeno ranch and BBQ sauce.

I’m thinking about CUTTING, y’all, to get rid of some tummy fat and to try and show more muscle. I’ll be eating more protein, less carbs and fats, no sugar, etc. so we’ll see how this goes!

Have a great one,

~ Mandy

 

 

 

A Low Key Day

Howdy there! How are you doing today?

Today was relatively low-key … no gym, just a trip to United for some supplies for our ranch trip tomorrow (I hope to take lots of pics and share them!). Luke and I were both tired today, so we took a rest day. πŸ™‚

Breakfast

Again with the eggs, homemade enchilada sauce, and chilies! I upped my protein game with this breakfast and added bacon and turkey sausage. Talk about delicious!

Lunch

I had chicken breast with BBQ sauce and roasted Brussels sprouts, carrots, and broccoli with jalapeno ranch drizzled on top … easy peasy lunch.

Snack

I drank a kombucha and ate an opal apple with Tajin Seasoning as a snack.

I also had a few jelly beans, just because they enticed me at the store and it’s Easter time, so why not?

Dinner

I roasted a spaghetti squash with S+P and EVOO and scraped one half out for dinner – I added spaghetti sauce, hot Boar’s Head turkey breast, and some roasted broccoli and tomatoes with some Parmesan cheese. YUM! Delicious and totally filling.

I hope you’ve had a great day! Mine was pretty decent. πŸ˜‰

~ Mandy

A Letter to Myself + A Lazy Day in the Life + WIAW

Howdy, howdy! How are you doing today?

Today I’m sharing a letter with myself on NOT overtaking my pills and running out … I did that this weekend, and I have been UTTERLY MISERABLE, which is why I’ve been MIA on here.

Dear Self,

You overtook your Xanax this weekend and were left high and dry for THREE DAYS. This is NOT good. It’s a miserable experience for EVERYONE involved, not just for you. You have seizures (yep, I had a seizure two days ago while cooking Luke breakfast, and I ended up banging my head on the concrete floor, not to mention the soreness that comes with seizures), your eyes get out of whack, you can’t sleep, you barely eat, you barely shower, you wander around the apartment humming like a damn zombie, you have hot and cold flashes, you feel like SHIT, you can’t drive, you can’t do anything FUN like work out because you’re going through HELLISH WITHDRAWAL. You *don’t need to overtake* those meds. It’s ridiculous, and I won’t tolerate that issue again. I’m not very thrilled with myself, as you might imagine. It’s an impulse control issue, and it’s OKAY to not feel perfect ALL OF THE TIME. Throwing more pills into your system just screws you up. Luke can’t sleep when this happens, you can’t sleep when this happens, it’s JUST MISERABLE. DON’T DO IT AGAIN. It’s IMPORTANT. It’s just like drinking alcohol – you DON’T HAVE TO DO IT, and it’s not worth it.

Please take this to heart, Self,

~Mandy

Now onto the bones of the post – my Day in the Life on Wednesday, 3/21! Today was a lazy day as I didn’t feel up to working out, but that’s okay! It’s also What I Ate Wednesday, so here ya go!

9:00 a.m. – At 9 on the dot, I wake up with a start! I can’t believe I’ve slept so long, but I did (since 8:30 last night) – my body needs the sleep to recover, I tell myself. Luke has forgotten to set his alarm for school and is running late. I make coffee for us very quickly and get Luke out the door. I then take my first Xanax of the day and my Buspar.

9:30 a.m. – I check my email and start this blog post (I had written the letter to myself yesterday). I also make some breakfast – two eggs over easy with Luke’s Dad’s homemade enchilada sauce and chilies, and a piece of whole wheat toast with I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter and jam. Coffee to drink.

I also *finally* order two more Happiness Runs Tanks from Free People since I basically live in mine well as a Skinny Charm Headband in Star/Ivory as my “fun thing for the month.” I CANNOT WAIT for my Abs2bfitness Pants to arrive too … they have yet to ship, but they mentioned on the website that they’re backed up. I’m hoping they come sometime in April.

10:30 a.m. – I take my shower and put on my makeup, do my hair.

11:00 a.m. – I run to Walmart for some expensive supplies (hello kitty litter and Tide) and upon return, Luke is back and in bed reading. I take my second Xanax around 11:30. My run to Walmart was relatively warm – I only needed a light jacket, and I’m super stoked that it’s FINALLY springtime!

12:00 p.m. – I start to think about lunch and set some Brussels sprouts, broccoli, and carrot with EVOO, balsamic vinegar, S+P, and garlic powder in the oven to roast.

After the veg is done, I place them on a bed of lettuce and top with hot chicken breast and two slices of bacon with jalapeno ranch and BBQ sauce. This meal was delicious! The bacon and the BBQ really made it yummy.

1 – 2:00 p.m. – I’m not sure what happened, but I ended back in bed and half- asleep! I guess my body is trying to recover from my rough-ass few days without Xanax. I’m so glad I’m back on it for sure!

Luke was up by the time I woke up and was cuddling with Caprica on the couch.

2:15 p.m. – I want a snack, so I make a banana with Nutzo PB, chia seeds, oats, and honey.

I also make a mug of hot tea and tried to just chill out a bit. My stomach soon became unhappy, so I took some Tums. At this point, working out looks like it’s not going to happen today … I am just too tired. Calliope was looking at me judgmentally while I thought about this:

Little shit looks like she’s telling me to get off my ass and hit the gym. Sorry, kitty, it’s prolly not gonna happen today, as poopy as that is. I snatch her up and demand that Luke snap a pic!

3:00 p.m. – I also make poor Luke snap a pic of me to ensure that I’m, in fact, not getting fat. I do this from time to time, and I sure ain’t fat! I’m lookin’ BANGING (despite the angle this picture was taken from – Luke was sitting on the couch and I was standing above him, so my head looks teeny). I weigh about 130-132 lbs at this point. πŸ˜‰ I don’t check everyday. My goal is to be a muscular 140 – 145 lbs, with lots of hard work and time.

Also, I’m IN LOVE with my new nose ring – it’s the right gauge, finally, and it’s not flimsy and stays put. PERFECTION. I also take my third Xanax around 3:00 (I take one right when I wake up, one around 10 – 11, one around 2-3, and then one around 6-7). It seems like I take a lot of Xanax, and I do, but the dosage works for me. It’s when I overtake them that we have a MAJOR problem!

3:45 p.m. – Luke and I run to Pak-a-Sak and grab drinks … I get a diet Sprite with fresh limes and lemons. Luke observed as we were going up the stairs that my calves are now no longer skinnier than my damn knees, so huzzah! Do I still have issues with my body image? OF COURSE I DO. I worry that I’m fat far too often, and I often need extra encouragement from my husband to tell me that I’m absolutely not fat and am simply looking HEALTHIER.

4:00 p.m. – I vacuum and clean up the apartment after Luke knocked down copious amounts of cat hair and dust from the walls in our bathroom earlier. 😦 YUCK! I cleaned the fridge last night too, which was a big improvement. We also take some deer that was soaking in milk for about a week out and assess it – it smells like sour milk, so we toss it, and I thaw a new batch in the sink. Then I paint my nails. πŸ™‚

I also have a snack of celery and cherry tomatoes with salt, hummus, and a bit of jalapeno ranch, easy peasy. I was craving cucumbers, but we’re fresh out, so I need to grab more at the store.

5:00 p.m. – I clean the cabinets. Huzzah! Our little apartment is slowly but surely getting cleaner. Luke plays Destiny 2, and I make him some cinnamon sugar toast to snack on.

6:00 p.m. – I make a Boar’s Head ham and American cheese sandwich for dinner with avocado, tomatoes, and pickles with honey mustard. Tasty! I love ham and cheese sandwiches. πŸ™‚

I also make some hot Moroccan Mint Tea and chillax by reading Facebook and Twitter.

Around 6:30, I feel that nasty yet familiar twinge of depression setting in. Perhaps I’m worried about my weight and how much I ate today? I’m not sure. I might just be low. Regardless, bipolar depression sucks. It happens to me throughout the day – mania is much rarer for me but more pronounced than depression – and depression really isn’t a fun mood. I wanted to cry, to pout, to curl up in a ball and die.

7:00 p.m. – I’m watching Expedition Unknown and drinking my tea after taking my last Xanax of the day. I’m still in a low mood, although Luke does his best of assure me that I’m looking better than I have in my entire life, poor man. He does his best to reassure me, but it’s hard to push past negative thoughts. He even gets the scale out and lets me weigh myself – 133 lbs (after eating and drinking all day and wearing clothes).

7:40 p.m. – I make a mug sugar cookie (no pic) and try to enjoy it. Sometimes I wonder that I deprive myself of all of life’s food-y pleasures, such as sweets, and I just need something sweet every now and then.

8:00 p.m. – I take a hot bath and try to relax and dispel the depression. Some days are just better than others, and I think my decision to not work out today hit me hard tonight.

8:30 p.m. – I make yet another mug cookie (peanut butter this time) and try to shut off those negative thoughts. Afterwards, I brush my teeth and take my cocktail of meds which keep me stable-ish and help me sleep.

9:30 p.m. – It’s lights out for me! I go to sleep feeling satisfied and a bit better.

I hope you’ve enjoyed reading a bit about my day … it was a PAIN IN THE ASS to write, but I did have fun regardless.

Til soon,

~ Mandy

 

 

The Day the Vaping Died

Howdy there! How are you today? I’m grumpy AF because today, Luke and I decided to toss ALL of our vape stuff and stop vaping/smoking. Yes, I’m craving that vape like crazy. No, I cannot have the vape again because it’s now in the giant garbage can outside our apartment. 😦 I’m grumpy, grumpy grumpy. I *know* it’s healthiest thing to do, plus a good way to save some money though … it’s just hard to adjust!

On a positive note, I started my day off with sit ups, so huzzah for that.

Breakfast

Oatmeal this morning! I had a cup of banana pumpkin oatmeal with protein granola and Nutzo PB. Coffee to drink. To be honest, I think I’ve been enjoying eggs and bacon over oatmeal lately, so I doubt I’ll make oatmeal again for a while. But this was a filling, good breakfast for today. πŸ˜‰

Lunch

I roasted up some broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, and Brussels sprouts with EVOO, S+P, and garlic powder and drizzled some spicy jalapeno ranch over the top – chicken breast with BBQ on the side! I swear, I do eat other things for lunch, but this is my go-to recently because it’s so easy and delicious.

Snack

Before our workout, I had a Brown Cow yogurt in Chocolate. YUM!

Workout

Today was chest day, and thankfully there were much less college kids in the gym today talking on their phones while sitting at the machines. Overall, we had a GREAT workout, and I’m finding my chest to be stronger than usual. The lighting is complete shit in these pics, so I do apologize! AfterΒ we worked out, we threw our vapes away (leaving me in a grumpy mood) and went to the store. Afterwards, I had a kombucha.

Dinner

I made some beef enchiladas tonight using Luke’s dad’s famous and homemade enchilada sauce and pickled Hatch chilies …

… so I had enchiladas with sour cream, avocado, tomatoes, and some black olives (added after I snapped the pic) for dinner tonight.

Okay, so today was NOT my best day mood-wise at all, primarily due to stopping vaping. But that’s okay – I’ll get through it and do better tomorrow!

Til soon,

~ Mandy

Getting Back on Track

Hello, hello! How are you doing today? We had a weekend full of tasty food and lounging, so it’s time to get back on track!

I *adore* this time change, y’all. It means that spring is on the way, and my schedule doesn’t get so confused compared to the winter time change (meds and all that, ya know).

Calliope was up and about this morning, scratching at the new scratching post. She’s such a sweetie.

Breakfast

I had two over-easy eggs with salsa, three slices of bacon, and some mixed fruit with sugar this morning at about 9. Coffee to drink.

Lunch

I roasted some carrots, Brussels sprouts, broccoli, and red bell pepper with EVOO and S+P, and I drizzled on a little spicy jalapeno ranch. I also had the breast of a rotisserie chicken that I had in the fridge (it was pretty dry, but that’s okay) with some BBQ sauce for dipping. Easy peasy lunch around 12:30.

Workout

Well, our workout wasn’t great today – we did arms, but Luke and I were immediately in a bad mood upon arrival because Verdure was PACKED with high school and college aged kids on their phones, sitting on the machines (that we wanted to use), just talking on the phone and texting away, no exercising at all. I guess that’s just part of Spring Break, but still … so annoying! So here’s a pic of me looking annoyed AF (because I was totally over it).

But that’s okay – we went and we did something, after all. Better than nothing! Perhaps tomorrow will be less stupid.

Snack

I had an opal apple with Tajin as a snack today …

Dinner

I started dinner off with half of a bag of bagged Dole Caesar salad kit around 5 since I was getting hungry and needed a little something-something, and it was very tasty!

And around 6:30, I had a Boar’s Head ham and American cheese sandwich with pickles and honey mustard on a Hawaiian bun. Nothing too inventive, but it was good.

Talk about a full day of good eats and exercise! I had a great day, and I hope you did too … here’s hoping that the gym won’t be so shitty tomorrow. πŸ˜‰

Take care,

~ Mandy